CT Results

Well, today found us in the doctor's office getting results of Bill's CT scan.  The doctor said that there were no new tumors and some present ones have shown to either be slightly decreased in size or stable.  However, everything that was found in previous CT's are still there  After asking us many questions, and being that Bill seems to be generally well, he recommended two more rounds of chemo  This is very disappointing, as Bill thought he was done with the infusions.

The chemo that Bill is getting can be very toxic and hearing loss and kidney damage are two of the things that they need to watch for.   This is extremely disappointing to Bill (and us, too).  Only Bill knows how he truly feels for two weeks or more after an infusion, and this is something that he doesn't want to do, yet knows that he still needs to keep trying.  Please continue to pray for Bill during these next couple of months.  After the two chemo treatments, he'll have another PET scan.

I need to be honest here.  So many times well-meaning friends have told Bill that they've prayed and they know that he'll be healed and the CT results would show that the cancer was gone.  "Don't worry," they say.  "You'll be fine."  "I know you're healed."  This has happened so often that you almost begin to believe them and feel you're healed.  It is a great disappointment when you get a CT result as we did today.

Sometimes well-meaning people say they are praying and then give the results that they want for us, rather than taking into consideration the Will of God.  I believe that we are walking on dangerous ground when we give prophetic statements without having a 100% track record as a Prophet. 

We continue to trust God's plan for us.  We may not always like the road we are on, but we trust the One who walks with us on that road.  Please continue to encourage us as the days go on.  I have a choice ... I can either spend alot of time being overwhelmed with Bill's diagnosis and my mom's declining health and her future care, or I can continue to Praise His Name and ask Him for guidance, strength and hope every moment of each day.  Please ask the Holy Spirit to keep me strong and give Bill, Jon, and I peace.