Last Few Hous of 2011

There are 2 hours and 5 minutes left of 2011 as I type this.  Jon's been in bed since 7:00 because his fever and a bad headache are back.  He also needs to go to work tomorrow.  Jess conked out around 9:20 and Bill's watching a football game.  He'll be in bed and sleeping before midnight.  I'm splurging on a big bowl of "Death by Chocolate" (LITE) ice cream and lovin' every spoonful.

As you know, my mom passed away on March 31.  Exactly 9 months ago today.  Something very unusual also happened this year: 11 of my friends, some very close friends, had their mother's pass away in 2011, plus 2 aunts and a sister.  Lots of tears were shed.

Happy New Year, everyone!

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Just use the link in the title and "for just $8.00 a month you can adopt a tiger.  There are estimated to be only 3200 left in the world.  Act now.  They're in desperate need."  Oh, please!  It seems that we can adopt anything these days.  This is the first time I've seen a tiger adoption commercial!

For less than $8.00 I had breakfast out with Shannon and Jessie.  Then I drove Jon to get some blood drawn for a preplanned blood draw he had to have.  About 5 loads of wash and paperwork.  Chris came over and brought the fixings to make us Mandarin Chicken for dinner.  It was very good.  Thanks, Chris!

Jon is somewhat better, but he lost both breakfast and dinner.  He's also developed a cough.  Bill didn't have a good day, wasn't able to nap ???, but feels pretty good tonight.  Go figure.

Snowy Rain

I'm not sure if it was raining today or snowing.  I don't think it knew what it was doing either.  What a mess.  The Hospice Chaplain visited this afternoon.  Bill had a good morning then went downhill.  Shannon and Jess went to Meijer's and I went to Kroger's.  Jon is still sick.  Not as bad, but severe stomach cramps, diahrrea, weakness and alot of hip pain.  This is day 4.  Yuck!

Conversations and Stupidity

Bill:   Did you have gas?

Nan:  Yes.

Bill:   Oh, good.  I thought there was something dead in here!

Nan shows her DL to Kohl's clerk for credit card ID.

Clerk:  That's OK - I'm beginning to recognize you.

Bill:  Well, that's not good!

Nan:  Oh, brother!

P.S.  In my defense, I only spent $7.00 and saved $30.00. 

Nan tries on a pair of blue jeans to see how they look.

Nan bends over to fix cuff of jean.

Nan almost permanently plants head into corner of Jessie's bed. 

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 

Well, that just about wraps up our day.  I took Bill on a short trip to the post office, Walgreen's and Kohl's just to get him out of the house.  Jon looks as bad as he has since Monday morning, and he still has a fever and diahrrea.  Jessie had a very bad crabby/crying time in the morning.  Shannon probably wished she was anywhere but here.  So ends another exciting day in our lives. 

A Contrast Noted

Jon continued to be quite sick this morning with a 101.5 temperature and severe headache.  Since he's had strep twice this year, he was wondering about meningitis.  So we decided we'd better be safe than sorry and we spent about 6 hours in the ER.  Flu swab came back negative, as well as all other tests, so they felt he had the stomach flu. If this is true, it is an awful strain. 

While Jon was being taken to the observation unit, there was a code for all doctors to go to the resusitation room immediately.  (Pretty much this is the only time you will ever see doctors run or walk fast!)  I prayed for whoever the code was called for, yet knowing that it may not turn out well.  At the same time, a lullaby was played over the speakers announcing the birth of a new baby.  What a contrast of life and death. 

I remember the day that my father-in-law passed away - actually it will be 23 years ago tomorrow.  Driving back from the hospital I felt Jon for the first time.  I was about 4 months pregnant.  I don't ever think I'll forget that moment in time.

Bill did not have a very good day.  In fact, this is the worse I have seen him.  Of course, he missed me, which could be part of his bad day (smilie face inserted here).  All kidding aside, he's much weaker, in quite a bit more pain, aggitated, depressed and downright tired and miserable.  Most likely it's the progression of the cancer and it is not a good feeling.  My heart aches for my beloved husband.

Jess had a melt down when I put her to bed, although she had a good day with Shannon.  Diane came and took over until Jon and I got home - Thanks, Di!  As for me, well, I am off to bed.  I would like to bury my head in the sand but instead I'll just put it under my pillow and pull the covers over my head. 

More Christmas Pictures

Thought I'd post a couple more pictures from last night.  Even though Bill wasn't very cooperative in getting his picture taken, I think it turned out very nice.  Diane and Randie always take a good picture. 

One hour after going to bed last night Jon became very sick.  Throwing up, diahrrea, high temperature, cillls.  He's still quite sick.  I don't think he's been this sick - ever.  He said that even awhile ago when he had strep, he wasn't this sick, and he was pretty sick then.  Tonight his temperture is 102.6.  Another bad thing about this is that he is supposed to work tomorrow, can't, so he'll be written up for not showing up (he did call in) AND, he won't get Holiday pay.  Bummer for him. 

We sure would appreciate prayers that the rest of us won't get sick.  Bill is having trouble sleeping, even with sleeping medication.  He's very fatigued and sleeps alot during the day.  If he got this flu, it would not be a good thing.  Thanks for your prayers!

Ten Presents - Twice

Doesn't she look like a happy girl?  She not only got her "ten presents", but she got it twice, thanks to Di and Randie!  She even slept until 7:30 a.m. and gave me a special sleep-in-on-Christmas-morning gift.

Keeping with tradition, I had a special breakfast.  Today was tiny quiches, Frankenmuth Stollen bread and melon.  Diane and Randie came for dinner at 1:00 and a nice day of just sitting and not doing much.  I even got a tiny nap!

T'was The Night Before Christmas ...

and all through the house,

not a creature was stirring,

not even a mouse.

THANK YOU, GOD !!!!!!

(For those of you who follow my blog daily, you'll understand my comment.)

Last night Rox met me at Kroger's and helped me grocery shop.  This morning Dorene came and spent 2 hours helping me wrap presents.  Jane took Jessie to the doctor's, then she and Rachel took Jess out to breakfast.  What a special gift these three friends gave me.  A stress-free Christmas Eve.  Thank you so very much, Rox, Dorene and Jane.  I've also had several phone calls and texts from far-away friends.  That sure makes me feel good.  Thanks, all! 

Jon worked but has tomorrow off.  Jess had a great day.  She was even in her pajamas when I called her for dinner.  She wanted to get her night over so that she could get at those "ten presents" in the morning.  Bill had another crappy day. 

Diagnosis: Cellulitis

I took Jess to the doctor's this morning and she was diagnosed with cellulitis.  Poor thing had her first shot in her butt.  She's also on a strong antibiotic and she will have to go back to the doctor's in the morning for a recheck.  Please pray that the shot and antibiotics will work.  Otherwise, it will be an IV antibiotic.  That definitely would NOT be good.

I may not have any of my gifts wrapped yet, but I am very thankful that all presents are purchased.  The doctor's office is on Schoenherr and Canal.  Hall Road was backed up for miles - as far as you could see for the cars going east.  West wasn't that bad, but still pretty busy. 

Thanks to our friend, Dorene, we can go back to a miceless existence.  Those little suckers knawed through floor boards into our kitchen cabinets.  Guess desperate times calls for desperate measures, but it would have been nice if they had gone next door.

One of our two furnaces went out today.  I wondered why it was so cold in the front part of the house.  Bill did not have a good day, but made it to the basement to show Jon how to relight the furnace.  I'm off to bed.  Tomorrow's another day. 

Special Prayer Needed For Jessie

Jessie has an infected pimple/boil.  I didn't think anything of it since she gets these often and I have medicine to put on them, which I have been doing for several nights.  However, the infected area is MUCH larger than even this morning.  We've put black dots around the area and if the infection is outside the dots in the morning, we'll have to go to the doctor (and, please God, not the hospital!).  Could be cellulitis, which would NOT be good.  Please pray that God would place a Hand of healing upon her tonight.  Thank you!

Bill had a better day and we were able to go to my sister's for a couple hours to visit, see their Christmas decorations and visit with our cousins Carol, her husband Gerry, their daughter Debbie and Carol's brother Curt.  Had a really nice time. 

What could be worse than ... finding mice droppings in the kitchen towel drawer?  How about the silverware drawer!  EEOW!  And that's a big EEOW!  I was going to begin wrapping presents this afternoon, but instead I washed and disinfected every piece of utencil and the containers and the drawer.  I sure didn't need this today.  We've lived in this house for 25 years and NEVER had a mouse other than in the basement a couple times.  Why now? 

I did praise God today for mice turds, though!  Just think.  If they didn't leave them behind, we'd never know that they had invaded our homes!  Then, what?

Difficult Days

We continue to covet your prayers for us as days are getting harder for Bill.  He's much weaker and not finding much joy in his days. 

Cane Presentation

Bill and I had the priviledge of being present as our friend, Wes, was presented a cane from the Woodcarvers of Michigan this morning.  These men make personalized canes for Veterans. The canes have pictures, campaigns and medals that are particular to each Veteran.  It was a very nice ceremony and a huge honor to be present for Wes.  FYI: Bill grew up with Wes' boys, Paul and Gary, and Wes even stood up in our wedding 28 years ago! 

 Bingo!  We caught 2 mice.  Went to Home Depot and bought several more traps so I can be sure we get them all.  I'm not putting my clean towels back in their drawer until we're SURE they're all gone.

Bill had a pretty good morning, a crappy afternoon with a severe headache, and an OK evening.  Me, I'm on my way to bed because I had to take Benedryl.  I made veggie burgers and sweet potato fries for dinner and immediately had a reaction.  Hives, itching and bright red cheeks.  Oh, well, that's what I get for trying to eat healthier!

What Could Be Worse Than ...

opening up your kitchen towel drawer and discovering that a four-legged rodent had visited overnight!  Eeow!  It left it's droppings all over my towels, as well as brought up melon seeds  that were in the garbage directly below the towel drawer, sucked them clean, and started a nest.  Man, he worked fast.  We've had mice in the basement, but NEVER on the first floor.  Tomorrow morning there better be that same mouse in the trap we set. 

Shannon worked for several hours this morning then Jess and I took Dad on our Girls Day Out lunch.  We also drove around Stoney Creek and went to the post office.  I had a yellow slip in our box, but with at least 15 people in line, I decided to pick whatever it is up tomorrow. 

Not a good day for Bill.  He wasn't able to sleep real well last night and has been super fatigued today.  Slept alot.  He's having to use a cane now, too, because of severe upper leg pain.  Hopefully, that will be better tomorrow.

A Day Of Visits

We had several visitors today and three of them were our very good like-family friends, Julie, Kylee and Lynzee.  It's been awhile since all three of them have been able to be here together.  They're showing off the snowglobes we gave them for Christmas. 

We also were visited  by Grandma and Grandpa B. and my long-time friend, Kim and her husband, Al.  I've known Kim since high school days - her family lived down the street from us on Brentwood and we went to school together.  We've kept in touch over the years, but we definitely need to visit more often. We enjoyed everyone's visit.

Bill felt some better than yesterday and worked on shingling his birdhouse for a little while.  He's been in bed for a couple hours though.  Just couldn't stay up any longer.  

Another Wasted Day

That was Bill's comment tonight when I asked him what he did (I was gone all day with a couple friends).  He did manage to put 3 rows of shingles on his birdhouse.  However, he's very discouraged as he is not doing well.  He's extremely fatigued and has quite a bit of discomfort.  He's been in the house for 7 days and needs to get out of the house, but doesn't feel well enough to leave.  Maybe tomorrow we can just go for a quick ride around Stoney Creek.  We'll see. 

Just Not A Good Day

I was thinking this morning that Jess has seemed to be doing so much better and not yelling, etc.  She's been happier and I thought we might have turned a corner.  Shannon and Jess went to breakfast and as soon as she walked in the door - the crabby Jessie entered.  The bad behavior lasted several hours.  Oh, well.  Maybe tomorrow.

Bill didn't have a good physical day.  Very fatigued and some stomach and throat pain.  He's pretty discouraged.  He also has no ambition to do anything.  I set up a folding table and he brought his birdhouse in and I put the puzzle on the table.  Maybe tomorrow he'll feel more like doing something. 

Hurtin'

That would be me.  My left knee and my right foot have been terrible today.  Very difficult walking.  It's probably the change in the weather - high temperature today, rainy.  Cold tomorrow.  My left knee looks like it has about 5# of fluid in it.  Guess I'll have to go get it drained again.  Not a fan of that long sucking needle. 

Bill painted his birdhouse today.  I think he's going to bring it inside to finish.  I'll have to take a picture so that you can see his progress.  He's still pretty tired and has slept alot this afternoon and evening.  I did buy him a 350 piece puzzle today.  I took Mom S. for her blood work this morning.  She wasn't happy with going.  Shannon and Jessie shopped and Jon did a little of this and that. 

Oh, The Weather Outside Is

Yucky!  Rainy!  Coldy!  At least it isn't snow.  For that I am grateful!

I was gone most of the day.  Began the morning with a special Christmas breakfast with a group of friends, a special lunch date with my friend, Ruth, then almost finished my Christmas shopping at Walmart's.  I was able to use the electric wheelchair and enjoyed my shopping time.

Jess and Shannon made decorated sugar cookies.  Bill had a very sleepy day.  Hopefully, he'll be able to sleep tonight.  He's also bored but has no ambition to do anythinig.  I'm going to the store tomorrow and buy him a jigsaw puzzle.  That will keep him occupied for at least a few hours.   Jon worked but is looking forward to having the next 2 days off. 

Christmas Is Coming Too Fast

Well, maybe for some, but not for Jess.  She was up early this morning sitting at the top of the stairs waiting to go downstairs and open her "ten presents".  For some reason she thought, or rather WANTED, today to be Christmas.  Let's just say that she was NOT happy when I told her she had many more days to wait. 

I felt that a picture was needed on my blog tonight.  This is our new tree.  Can't really tell the flocking on it, but I think it is very pretty. 

Bill had a half-good day.  He was able to go to his workshop and paint his birdhouse in the morning.  The afternoon wasn't that great, though. 

Jon and I went Christmas shopping and then I had a doctor's appointment.  We also went and had a nice lunch at Filippa's.  Jon's never been there and really enjoyed it.  I "ran" into 2 former bosses, my good friend's Bob and Kathy. 

Two of our church friends (Mick and Lynn) came and visited this evening.  It was such a nice time.
  

12 Hours On - 12 Hours Off

Bill did not have a very good day.  He was very down, extremely fatigued, headache all day and in some pain.  Vicodin took the pain away, but he continued to be dragging.  Just now as he took off a 12-hour-on/12-hour-off nitro patch, he realized he had 2 on!  We really need to get better with this new medication and not forget to take it off at night.  This most likely is why he felt terrible.  We'll see.  If he's much better in the morning, then it might be the patch.  That would at least explain the bad headache all day.

I had a 9:30 meeting with Jessie's case worker, and interviewed a new worker for Jess at noon.  At 11:20 our friend, Jeanne came and visited and at 1:30, Paul and Julia came.  Thanks so much for all the visits.  Jess and I had our usual lunch out, post office, bank and Walgreen's.  She spent the rest of the day on her iPad. 

Thanks, Jon, for doing so much around the house today.  It really helped. 

A Quiet Sunday

Jon didn't have to work today so after he attended Sunday School, we met him in the church parking lot and gave him the van with Jessie in it and we took his keys.  It was nice to be in church with my husband.  It was a great service. 

Bill rested all day and is beyond bored.  He's watched football, played on the iPad and even watched a Christmas movie.  I worked on Christmas cards.  Jessie spent the afternoon on her iPad, looking at magazines and watching DVD's.  Jon went to the show.  It's been pretty quiet.  I like quiet. 

All Is Well

I didn't post last night because I didn't get home until midnight from an evening out with some friends who I used to work with.  We've been getting together for many years - maybe 15-20 years.  We get caught up on one another's lives then worship through song and prayer.  I must say that last night I felt such peace.  Not just peaceful, but a much deeper peace that only can come from God.  I am blessed to be part of this group of dear ladies.

Yesterday was a great day for Bill.  He hasn't had an entire good day in many months, so we were able to go visit our good friends, Ron and Arlene.  Ron is having some physical difficulties himself and the four of us encouraged one another.  It was a very special time. 

Today Jess spent most of the day with Jane and Rachel and went Christmas shopping.  I've done many loads of wash and went to Sam's Club with Jon for some groceries and Christmas gifts.  I haven't been there in months, and if you don't like crowds, that wasn't the place to be today, that's for sure.  What a mess. 

Bill worked a little in his workshop today but then spent the rest of the day on couch, not feeling his best.  That was discouraging since yesterday was such a good physical day.  He wasn't able to sleep well last night either.  However, the new medicine that the Hospice doctor has prescribed for him is helping a bit with the constant vomiting from not being able to swallow his saliva.  That's good. 

Prayer Request For A Stranger

Yesterday when Bill and I were at Sears and in line to pay, a woman came and stood next to us.  She was carrying a bag of clothes, obviously returning them.  She looked about ready to cry and then did.  I immediately went over to her, put my arm around her and asked if she had lost someone.  She said that she was returning a nightgown she had bought for her (33 year old) daughter to wear when she had her first baby.  Last Saturday was the baby shower, and instead, they buried both her daughter and the unborn baby. 

Ok, I really wasn't prepared for that.  She proceeded to tell me that her daughter (only child) was a school teacher, passed out at work, and due to a ruptured cyst, bled to death - there wasn't anything anyone could do to save her or the baby.  She said that she didn't know how to get through this.  I asked her if she had a faith and she responded that she did and that was helping.  She also has many people to support her.  I told her that I would be praying for her in the days ahead.  Please join me.  Her name is Judy. 

I felt at a loss to say much to her.  Sometimes words are inappropriate - I just continued to hug her and later assured her of my prayers.  I am thankful she has a faith to help her, but she still has to go through each moment of each day dealing with such a huge loss.  She certainly won't be having a Merry Christmas. 

On a much brighter note ... Bill had a good day!

Pajama Day

Shannon arrived at work with her pajamas on!  She said she was going to, I just didn't believe her.  So, I made it a pajama day and let Jess stay in her pajamas, too.  It didn't last very long though.  She said she was "hot" and wanted her clothes on instead.  Funny. 

Bill and I went to Sears to do some Christmas shopping for each other.  I had fun pushing him in the wheelchair - ran in the parking lot, almost tipped him out on the sidewalk and ran into several displays.   It didn't do much for my bad knee and heel.  I "forgot" about them and they sure do hurt tonight.  Oh, well, it sure was worth it.

Emilia and Stan visited this evening.  We both are enjoying these visits.  Thank you, Jesus, for friends!

A Mandatory Meeting

After Bill's nurse came and I got a couple loads of wash started I had to go to the Mt. Clemens Library for a mandatory "self-determination" meeting from CMH.  It covered quite a few changes that the State of Michigan is implementing that need to be followed for record keeping and payroll  (there goes the paperwork) since I am Jessie's "employer".  Does this make any sense to you?  Makes 2 of us!  The only nice thing about this meeting was sitting next to my long-time friend, Karen, and her husband, Bill.  That was a nice surprise!

Bill had an OK day, sleeping most of it.  Not sure why.  Diane and Randie came and we had Chinese for dinner and then attacked one part of our bedroom.  We're getting there.  I still have to clean off the bed in order to go to sleep tonight. 

My friend, Theresa, brought many frozen meals for us from several people, which is really appreciated.  Thank you, Lord, for all the hands that prepared our meals and helped clean our bedroom. 

Good night, Karen!  See you again soon.

What A Fast Day

Bill had a terrible morning - very fatigued and sick.  He didn't look good either.  To make a not-too-long story shorter, I'm pretty sure it was due to medication he took last night to sleep.  It only took me about 6 hours to figure that out.  Tonight is a much better night.  Also, we had visitors: Bruce and Andrea.  Had a very nice time.  Bill really enjoys these visits.  Me, too!

Jess and I went to the post office (got there just before the line looked like the bus unloaded!), to Judy's house to have some pants altered, then we did something different and had lunch at the Garden.  All Jess ever wants is chicken nuggets and french fries.  Today she had a lamb gyro and homemade potato chips.  There was nothing on either one of our plates when we were done.  We came home and checked on Bill then left and had our hair cut.  I always know when I'm over due for a cut: I look like Albert Einstein in the morning!  Jon finished a 3-day stretch and is looking forward to a couple days off.

Visitors Brightened Our Day

Today did not begin well or end well.   Bill slept very little and didn't feel very good.  Jess spent roughly 2 hours yelling and screaming at us for coughing.  Ignoring her yelling can only go on for so long before someone else loses it.  Bill is getting stir-crazy so I decided to take him and Jess out for a bit.  I thought if we went to breakfast (of course, he'd just watch us) that would help.  We went to 2 restaurants and both were packed.  Not ever going to breakfast on a Sunday morning we weren't aware that it is a big eat-out day.  We ended up at McDonald's for lunch.  It was OK, but not when you were thinking of an omelet.

Bill and Jess stayed in the van while I ran into Kohl's to pick up a set of flannel bedding for Bill's bed.  He's so cold at night.  We have flannels for our bed, but not twin size.  Washed them and he's enjoying their comfort as I type.

When we got home no one was in any better mood, that's for sure.  However, we received a couple visits and that lifted our spirits.  Cindy, our friend from church, brought a roast beef dinner and stayed to talk.  Later on, George and Mary came.  It was just what we needed.  Thanks, Cindy, George and Mary!

However, around 8:30 p.m., Jess started yelling again.  By this time Bill couldn't take anymore so I brought her upstairs, gave her a bath and put her to bed.  That entire time she cried and cried and cried, for an entire hour!  I don't think she even knew what she was crying for by this time.  Let's hope that tomorrow will be much better for her!

Deck The Halls

Bill, Joanne and I went to Chris' late this morning and helped her put up her tree and decorate it.  She made delicious quiches, JoAnne brought a coffee cake and I brought come clementines.  We had a nice meal, and in no time at all, the tree was beautiful!  As you can see from this other picture, Bill watched us, and someone watched him!  He enjoyed his outing, but was ready to get home and take a nap.  Me, too!                                                             



No Birdhouse Work Today

Another day inside for Bill.  Just not up to leaving the house and even doing something he enjoys.  Yesterday Butch visited, today Charlie came.  Thanks, guys!  "Alfredo Gonzalez" called yesterday and Ruth called today.  Those visits and calls have meant alot.  Thanks!

I had a meeting at 9:00 a.m. with Jessie's case worker and we had the Hospice Social Worker visit at 10:30 a.m.  Paperwork and laundry filled another part of the day.  Maybe there will be more to talk about tomorrow. 

A Beautiful Day

Wasn't today a terrific weather day?  Just gorgeous.  Why couldn't it be like this all winter?  I could handle that.  Bill continued on his birdhouse for a couple hours after Jon took him to a couple stores Christmas shopping.  He also had a visit and phone call.  That was very nice.  Jess and Shannon went to Meijer's then made banana bread.  I took Mom S. to get her blood taken to check the INR level.  I also needed blood taken - 5 vials!  I was about a year late in getting it.  I also went to the bank, lunch and Kroger's.  Two loads of wash and paperwork.  A pretty full day. 

Magazines

Jessie LOVES magazines.  She goes through each page and circles certain things and crosses out others.  I don't know what it means, but she really enjoys this.  Especially baby magazines.  If anyone that is reading this has magazines that they just throw away, let me know and I would love to take them off your hands.  I have her a couple subscriptions, but they only come every other month. 

Bill has not slept well the past couple nights, and he's not been feeling well either.  He said he's giving his birdhouse a chance to rest for a day or so.  We're hoping for a better tomorrow.

My New Project, So To Speak

Today I began on my mom's stuff that has accumulated in our bedroom.  With the addition of Bill's hospital bed, things had to be rearranged.  That wouldn't be a problem because we have a large bedroom, but with all the boxes that have to be gone through, it is a mess.  This will take me quite awhile, but I have a mission!  It WILL get done THIS YEAR!  Of course, most of the stuff is just being reboxed and sent to the basement for another year.

My friend, Rox, was helping me but had to leave on an unexpected trip up north.  Her aunt (her mom's sister) had a massive stroke this morning and was being taken off life support.  Please pray for Rox and her family.  Rox's mom passed away a week before my mom, and this aunt is the last of this family's older generation.  She was very close to her. 

Bill is BORED.  He's gotten into a routine where he works a couple hours in his workshop in the morning then comes in and vegges for the rest of the day.  Looks like I'll have to start a "honey-do" list - and soon!

Visits

Today Bill began his day with a visit from the Hospice Chaplain, Diane.  She is the same Chaplain that we had for my mom.  Just after she left the nurse came for her first official visit.  The other nurse that came last week was the In-take nurse.  Bill then worked on his birdhouse before he came in and had "lunch" and vegged on the couch the rest of the day. 

Jess and I went to Wendy's for lunch, 2 Salvation Army stores and a Dollar Store.  We visited Grandma and Grandpa B then to the post office before we came home.  Jess went out with Jane and Rachel for dinner at Pizza Hut then to the Shelby Library tonight.  She had a great "Big Girls Day Out". 

Jon went out to breakfast, a couple stores, went shooting and watched tv.  I tried to get paperwork done but that didn't happen.  I did do some Cyber Monday ordering on the internet tonight.  I had forgotten to have pictures processed since August.  Good thing.  Snapfish had a 1cent sale.  One hundred fifty-one pictures = $1.51.  Wonderful!  Too bad the postage was over $8.00. 

A Post I Want To Write But Can't

Something really funny happened this morning but my boys won't let me put it into print.  Jon said I'd just be a big embarassment.  So, if you remember when you see me, ask me what was so funny and I will personally tell you. (It has to do with the music from the Sugar Plum Fairies.)  Boy, they sure know how to spoil a girl's fun.

Bill rested the entire day.  Spent extra time in bed, in the chair listening to Christmas music and on the couch watching a football game.  He's been very fatigued and not feeling so well.  Bill, Chris, JoAnne and I went to church tonight for the Christmas Hymn sing with special quartet trumpet players, two being good friends of ours.  It was a nice evening. 

Boy, I sure want to tell you about this morning - oh, well. 

A Better Night's Sleep

Thanks to the hospital bed, Bill had a better night's sleep since he could elevate his head and be alot more comfortable than in a chair.  Today he spent a couple hours in his workshop and put siding on the birdhouse, then spent the rest of the afternoon watching football games and resting. 

Jane and Rachel came and took Jessie out for several hours and tired her out.  They went to Westview Orchards and Jess got to pet the animals, climb in the tunnel and play on the swings.  She had cider and donuts for snack and also went to McDonald's for lunch.  Thanks, Jane and Rachel, for giving Jess such a nice day out. 

I went to the post office, bank, Home Depot and Meijer's.  I also went to the Garden Grille for a nice, quiet, sit down lunch.  My friend, Heather, the head waitress, took care of me.  She patted my shoulder and said, "Just relax".  I did.  It was a nice lunch break.  I made a grocery list for Meijer's then read some of a book I have on my iPhone.  Thanks, Heather, for watching out for me. 

A Very Trying Day

It began well, but that's about it.  I went with Jess and Shannon to breakfast and after we got home I straightened up because we were expecting the Hospice In-take Nurse to come. Her visit lasted almost 3 hours and during that time the phone rang with important calls, we had company, and she ordered a hospital bed to see if that would help with his sleeping, since he can't sleep in a bed.  The recliner that's been his bed isn't the most comfortable! Not only did she order it, but it was delivered before she left, which meant that while she was here and we had company, I had to go and make room for it.

That just about put me over the edge because, although we do have a very large room, it's almost filled to capacity with my mom's boxes I brought home and haven't gone through yet.  Not to mention the fall stuff that needed to be put in the fall closet and some of the Christmas boxes are still out of that closet. 

Diane and Randie were expected for dinner at 3:00, and needless to say, I had nothing started.  They not only brought the turkey, they had to make everything I was supposed to make.  Oh, yes, that's the same time as the bed is being delivered, the nurse is still here and so is our company!

Finally we were enjoying a nice, quiet turkey dinner.  Thanks, Di and Randie!  However, after dinner and I was clearing the table, for some reason I began choking and coughing, which sent Jess right into a major panic attack.  She was terrified because I was choking.  It took awhile to calm her down, poor thing.  That sure didn't help my day.

Diane and Randie helped me take some of Mom's boxes to the basement, and I'll work on it again tomorrow.  Right now, I am numb.  Bill's very tired tonight and doesn't feel well.  Please pray that tomorrow will be better for us, would you please?  I would appreciate it.

Happy Thanksgiving, Everyone!

I hope that everyone had a wonderful, restful and thankful Thanksgiving.  No matter where life finds us, there is ALWAYS much to be grateful for.  God has blessed us richly.  We love you all!

And When She's Bad, She's Very Bad

I know these pictures don't go along with the title, but I'll get to that in a minute.

I thought you'd like to see the birdhouse Bill is working on in his workshop.  He's been able to spend a couple hours each day working on it.  It's coming along nicely. 

I spent today doing wash and collecting all the harvest decorations, putting them upstairs on our bed.  I just finished putting them away, because if I hadn't, I would have had to find another place to sleep.

The tree is completed, thanks to Shannon.  Jess and Shannon made our special pumpkin ice cream pie for dessert tomorrow and I baked a pumpkin pie.  It will just be Jess, Grandma and me for dinner.  Jon has to work and, of course, Bill is unable to eat food.  We're going to have chicken leg quarters instead of turkey - too much work for just 3 people. 

OK, back to the title.  I'm sure you can tell who the title is referring to.  Yup, Jess!  She was absolutely horrid today.  Yelling, screaming, defiant, repititious repeating words, etc., etc., etc.  Nothing Shannon or I did made a difference.  I had it and I'm sure Shannon did, too.  I sure hope and pray that tomorrow will be MUCH better. 

Yesterday and Today

Last night I was just too tired physically and emotionally to blog.  I worked too hard and my body was telling me I had better slow down.  My brain was mush and I just went to bed early.  Bill didn't have a very good day, either. 

Today Mom S had a cardiologist appointment and Bill felt well enough to go along.  We were gone for several hours and it totally wiped him out.  Shannon, Jessie and I began putting ornaments on our tree.  It's almost done and we'll finish tomorrow - hopefully.  You'll know if I post pictures.

If you don't have kids in your house and you need someone there to remind you that Christmas will soon be here, just let me know and I'll bring Jess over.  At least 30 times a day she 's hollering that Santa's coming and she gets "10 presents" in the morning!  I'm not sure I'll be able to handle the 30+ days until she gets her 10 presents.  Yesterday she pointed to my harvest decorations and said, "Halloween done!  Santa comin!" 

I Should Have Been Decorating, But ...

instead I rested and took a nap.  Maybe I'll tackle the Christmas closet tomorrow.

Bill felt well enough to go to church today.  He went to the 9:45 service and after he got home he watched Jess and I made the 11:30 service.  When I got home, though, I was surprised to see him so sick.  He was wrapped up in his electric throw and having chills and shakes.   I had him put on flannel clothes, wrapped him up in several blankets, put a hat on him and prayed.  Shortly after his shaking ceased and he slept for a couple hours.  He's feeling much better now except for his big toe!  He said it hurts.  I don't think a big toe ache counts - sorry, Bill. 

Jon worked and Jess occupied her time with the iPad, tv, videos, apples to apples, bingo and "ten foods" (her grocery list for the week in the grocery adds).  Actually, she's now circling items she wants for Christmas in all the extra store flyers that fill the newspapers.  When you think of it, pray for my friend, Julie, who delivers these extra flyers.  This up-coming week is the worst of the entire year for her delivery job.   

Applesauce

Rox, Chris and I worked for over 4 hours turning 5 bushels of apples into 60 cups of applesauce, 4 pies and 9 cups of cut up apples to freeze for future pies.  We all needed tylenol before we were done!  Had a great time, though!

Jon worked, Shannon and Jessie hung out and Bill worked in his workshop for a couple hours then vegged on the couch for the rest of the day.  He was very fatigued this evening. 

A Decision Has Been Made

I would like to share with you what Bill put on his Facebook page just a few minutes ago:

The results of my last CT scan were not good. The cancer has progressed in all areas. I was given the option to try another 3 different (and very nasty = 2 were specificially cardiac toxic and 1 causes nerve naraphothy) chemo threatments. I have chosen quality of life verses quantity of life. I will not have anymore chemo treatments. I have asked that Hospice be put in place, so that when I need it, it will be available with only a phone call.

I ask that you continue to pray. We have a mighty God who chooses when we are born and when we die. I ask that you pray that I (and my family) would remain faithful and strong during the days ahead. I would ask that we would have many more days of laughter and fun with friends and family. Thank you so much for your continued support.

 

 

How are we doing?  Good.  We've known that this day would come when he was diagnosed with terminal cancer 17 months ago.  We will just continue to do what we've been doing since then ... living one day at a time, and enjoying life as much as possible.  Bill, Jon and I had a fun couple hours out this morning.  We went to the indoor range and watched Jon shoot, then went out to lunch.  When we got home, Bill spent the rest of the afternoon in his shed working on his birdhouse. 

 

So, as you can see, we are not going to do anything different.  We openly talk about death and heaven.  We laugh and cry together.  We are blessed to have each other.  We are blessed to have so many friends and family that care and will continue to pray for us.   

Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow - Or Not

It was official here in Washington.  Snow fell to the ground and in just a short span of time almost covered the ground.  Granted it's gone, but it still happend.  Earlier today there were flurries while we were putting up our new, smaller tree (pre lit!!!!!!!!).  It's such a beautiful tree.  It has white flocking and pine cones on it.  Almost needs no ornaments.  Notice that I said the tree was up.  I said nothing about being decorated.  That'll take days. 

Yesterday Bill took me out to breakfast, today Jon treated me to breakfast, with Bill coming along for company.  That was sooo nice.  I have the greatest husband and son.  I'm glad they like me!

Decorating

The Christmas decorations have begun to go up.  Bill and Ruth gave us a pre-lit tree and we put it out on our deck.  Bought some sparkly garland and bulbs.  Looks great.  Official lighting date:  Thanksgiving.
I made an outdoor wreath years ago and the bulbs were faded and it was oh, so dusty.  Bill blew it off with his air compressor, I tore off the old ornaments and remade it.  Looks nice, if I do say so myself.  It's on the front porch.  Friday our new tree goes up in the family room.

My wonderful husband took me out to breakfast, then we went to Home Depot for a few odds and ends that we needed.  Post Office.  Washed clothes, sat outside on the deck and the swing for a bit.  That was REALLY nice.  The last 2 days have been good for Jess.  Jon worked.  Bill didn't feel real well today, and especially tonight.  That's about it!

At The Crossroads

Our visit to the cancer doctor didn't turn out like we had expected.  Knowing that the cancer has progressed, we were expecting the doctor to say that there wasn't anything else that could be done.  Instead, he encouraged a different round of 3 types of chemo.  Three nasty ones again. 

At this time, I believe that Bill will decide in the next 3 weeks (chemo tentatively scheduled for December 7) whether or not to continue treatment.  It is time to decide on quality of life verses quantity of life.  A difficult decision to be sure.  I think Bill was prepared to just do paliative care (hospice), but when the doctor encouraged trying more chemo, it gave him a glimmer of hope in arresting the cancer again. We have 3 weeks to decide.  We'd appreciate your prayers as Bill decides what he wants to do.  Only he knows how he feels after chemotheraphy.  Only he can make this decision.  Please pray that he will make a decisionn and have peace about which way to go.

Thanks!

Jessie's Other Grandma

Today was just another Monday, I guess.  We did alot of what we usually do.  Girl's day out, wash, paperwork and phone calls. 

When Jess and I were out we stopped by "Aunt" Lois' parent's house and visited for a few minutes.  Jess LOVES Grandma B.  She gave her more kisses than I get in a week!  

While we were there Jess "reminded" me that "Lois, Haiti, Children, Jesus."  Translation:  Aunt Lois is in Haiti teaching children about Jesus. 

Have a good night!

A Direct Quote I Want To Share With You

Don't Waste Your Cancer

by John Piper

Chapter 6

"We waste our cancer if we think

that "beating" cancer means

staying alive rather than

cherishing Christ."

"Satan's and God's designs in our cancer are not the same.  Satan designs to destroy our love for Christ.  God designs to deepen our love for Christ.  Cancer does not win if we die.  It wins if we fail to cherish Christ.  God's design is to wean us off the breast of the world and feast us on the sufficiency of Christ.  It is meant to help us say and feel, "I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my LORD" (Philippians 3:8) and to know that therefore, "to live is Christ and to die is gain" (Philippians 1:21)."

May we be faithful in our efforts

to know Christ in a deeper way

than ever before.

Please pray with us to this end.

Praise His Holy Name!



A Special Day Out

Bill, Jon and I met Diane and Randie at the MCPA for the Michigan/Ohio Concert Choir's Christmas concert.  I was concerned that Bill wouldn't be able to go, or if he did, would have to keep getting up to use the restroom, but he didn't have to!  Thanks, Jesus! It was a very nice concert, and it was great to see our friends, Rob and Angie, be part of the concert. 

Went to Abuelos for dinner.  Bill is such a trooper.  While we sat there and gorged ourselves on chips and dinner, he sat and watched us.  Thank you, Bill, for going and being a part of our special day out, even though you couldn't eat anything. 

Jess spent the day with Jane and Rachel and they did alot. She's very tired, and I'm on my way upstairs to put her to bed.  A very nice special day out. 

CT Results

Well, the results of the CT scan were not what we had hoped for.  It appears that many lymph nodes are considerably larger, the distal esophogus opening is thicker (probably the tumor), and a worsening of the liver is noticably.  It seems that the last 3 rounds of chemo has not touched the cancer and it has progressed considerably. 

The doctor gave Bill a prescription for an antibiotic that is supposed to relax the esophogus so that at least the saliva would go through.  Unfortunately, it is no longer made!  You would think the doctor would know that.  We're waiting for a substitute to be chosen. 

Tuesday we have an appointment with the cancer doctor.  Please pray with us, and especially for Bill, as he has decisions to make regarding his treatment. 

Too Tired

Right now I am very tired.  Too tired to think, let alone type. 

Tomorrow we have a family funeral at 11:00 a.m. then a 3:15 p.m. doctor appointment to get last week's CT results.  I'll let you know tomorrow night the results.  We appreciated your continued prayers.

New Balance Shoes

I know that I mentioned earlier about the severe pain I've had from 4 heel spurs on my right foot.  I want to let you know that 98% of the pain is gone!  I did not wear the space boot the doctor wanted me to wear.  I did not go to Physical Therapy.  I even cancelled my next appointment.

Instead, I went to a New Balance store and found that they had a line of clogs and sandals that give great heel and arch support. They are called Aravon and are engineered by New Balance. They were more than I wanted to spend (about $110.00), but I bought them and have worn them exclusively.  I am very pleased with my lack of foot pain. 

Bill worked out in his workshop, Jon went to a couple stores after we enjoyed breakfast out together.  Jess on the other hand ... not such a good day.  I sure hope tomorrow is better for her.   

Not Much To Report

Just another day.  Took Mom S. to the lung specialist today and she got a "clean bill of health", so to speak.  She's doing very well and only needs to be on the coumidin for 6 months. 

I did everal loads of wash, paperwork and I snuck outside to see Bill in his workshop and check on the progress of his birdhouse.  Jon was out most of the day.  Jess.  Well, let's just say that she was very challenging today.  Lots of defiance.  Bill has been very fatigued lately which has him emotionally drained, and throwing up every day numerous times (saliva) is not fun.  Challenging times for him, too. 

FREE

I had a very busy day.  It began with a long social worker meeting then I put in a load of wash.  Jess and I went to the post office, Wendy's for lunch, visited Chris at her work, Salvation Army to drop off items, picked up a bushel of apples and visited Rox for a few minutes.  When I was driving north on VanDyke the Kroger's at 31 Mile Road had gas for $3.15.  I decided that on my way back down I would stop and get it for that good price. When I drove back about an hour or so later, it was $3.55 !!!!!  It went up 40 cents!!!!!  Next time I'll turn around and stop first.

It was such a nice day that I told Bill I'd blow leaves again.  I can't pick them up, but I can blow them into a pile.  So I have about 3 large piles, waiting to be picked up.  I decided to put a sign on the pile in the front that says, "FREE".  I figured that if people who live in a treeless subdivision miss the fun of raking and picking up leaves, I'd help them.  FREE leaves.  First come - first served.  Such a deal.  No takers yet.  Bummer.



An Extra Girls Day Out

Jon worked and Bill went to church.  Jess and I had our special Sunday breakfast and prayer time.  At noon we left to have lunch with Denise and Caity.  It's been several months since we've been together and we had a very nice time. 

Several things happened today that weren't in the "plan".    I was going to go north on VanDyke to the expressway but there was a bad accident blocking the road at 27 Mile.  Turned around and went to 23 Mile to get on the expressway, making us late.  We were going to meet at Anton's at 16 Mile and Dequindre but Denise called and said they were closed with a Lease sign in the window!  We finally met at The Country Inn.  I used the bathroom and while in there the double toilet paper cover fell off and hit me in the shoulder, just missing my head.  When I went to use the soap, that cover fell off! 

When we left we went to 16 Mile Road and headed to the New Balance store at Rochester Road.  Bad move.  Traffic was backed up for at least a mile as 3 lanes were down to 1 for construction.  Jessie announced while in that jam that she had to go to the bathroom.  Stopped at McDonald's at 16 Mile and Rochester before going to the shoe store - THAT WAS CLOSED!  By that time, all I wanted to do was go home!

What Do I Need To Do Different?

Every Saturday morning the psychologist comes and talks to me about Jessie and how to help her in various situations.  Each time we've met I've taken alot of notes and there has been some positive little changes and it's been encouraging.  Today's visit I took no notes and cried most of the time.  Shannon sat in on some of the discussion and gave very helpful insight. 

I've always known that there had to be something that I have been doing wrong, but it still was very hard for me to hear that some of her behavior is due to my "making" her be more dependent on me.  I am grateful for the insight, but there is alot to process.  I spent most of the day by "myself" and asking God to help me figure out what I need to change.  I know that I am a very good mother.  Just maybe too good for Jessie's development.  Please pray with me.

Bill had a good morning and worked about 3 hours in his workshop, but then was done for the day.  He was very, very tired and spent alot of time watching football the rest of the day.  Jon worked and Jess went to the show with Shannon and saw "Puss 'n Boots" after doing academics.

A Day Out With Jon

Bill felt SO MUCH BETTER that I could go out with Jon as planned.  He had an appointment in Mt. Clemens at 2:00 p.m. and before then we breezed through a couple stores and went to Red Lobster for lunch (thanks, Jon, for treating!).  I sure have a wonderful son.  He's fun to be with and great company! Bill worked in his workshop and Jess had breakfast out with Shannon. A very nice day. 

An Unexpected Reaction

We were right on time for Bill's CT scan at 9:30 a.m. and after just a few minute's wait, they handed him the 2 glasses of contrast.  We were very concerned and wondering how he was going to drink them since he's not had anything to drink other than sips of water with his daily pills in over 2 months.  He did drink about 3/4 of the contrast, but he also throw up a couple times. 

Unfortunately, right after he drank the contrast he began shaking and having the chills.  I wrapped him up in a warm blanket and he shook for the hour he had to wait for the CT Scan.  He made it through that, and we left the area, but he was shaking so much that I made him sit down in a chair in the main entrance and got a couple volunteers to get warm blankets for him.  I also got him some coffee to see if he could sip that.  We sat there for about 40 minutes before he felt he could leave. 

He's been on the couch all day sleeping.  He said he feels terrible - just like a chemo day.  This is very unusual for a CT scan.  Please pray that he feels MUCH better in the morning.  It's been a discouraging day for him. 

A Wonderful Fall Day

It was such a beautiful day.  I began my day with breakfast with my friend, Mary.  It was nice getting caught up on our families.  Bill and I went to Home Depot when I got home and we bought a plastic heavy-duty shelving unit for the basement so I can put PAPERWORK in the basement that has to be kept for several years.  I need them OUT of our bedroom.  We also bought a new Christmas tree.  We decided to downsize our tree and they had the perfect one.  I am looking forward to putting it up in a couple weeks.  Anyone who wants a very nice, large tree (no lights), let me know - it's yours.

I spent a couple hours outside working in the back yard and deck, putting things away for the winter.  I also blew leaves into piles and my friend, Dorene, picked them up and put them in bags.  The back yard is almost done.  Unfortunately, my left hip is giving me lots of pain, and I had to leave the rest for her to do.  Sometimes I feel so useless.  It's either my heel, knee and now my hip.  I'm a mess.

Bill had a pretty good day and did a little outside, too.  Not much.  We go to the hospital tomorrow for his CT scan.  Please pray that he will be able to swallow the contrast and keep it down long enough to take the necessary pictures.

Swing Time

Bill and I did some "running around" this morning then he went out to his workshop and continued cleaning and reorganizing.  A friend of mine came over in the afternoon and we went outside under the playhouse and sat in the 2-seater swing.  It was sunshiny but blustery.  We both had on coats, she wore her gloves and we wrapped up in blankets.  That was really nice.  Very refreshing.  Jon worked and Jess and Shannon went to the Library.

I asked Bill a few minutes ago how he felt on a scale of 1-10, with 10 being great.  His reply was "8".  We'll take it.  He has another CT scan on Thursday, which should tell us whether or not his problem in swallowing is a tumor or ??? 

What NOT To Do When Shopping With Jessie

As you know, Monday's are Girls Day Out.  We generally go out to lunch and then a store or two.  We have a good time together.  Today I learned what NOT to do the next time we shop.

All day long I have had difficulty walking.  My left hip and knee hurt and my legs feel very weak.  Today was a day I needed the electric wheelchair in order to make it around Target.  I've used it many times, but not with Jessie.  Since she usually clings to my arm, I wasn't sure how I was going to keep track of her.  First she tried the back of my coat, then the arm rests, then the basket.  None worked, so I used my right hand to propell the cart and held her hand with my left hand. 

All seemed to go well until I spotted a good deal on a case of water.  I stopped and got out of the cart and turned to get the case of water when I heard her say: "Jessie tired.  Sit now."  I turned around and she was in the cart and had her finger on the throttle and aiming for the aisle. 

You know how sometimes people say they see their whole life flash before them, well I didn't get a flash of my life, but instantly got a flash of the past and one of the possible present.  Years ago when we were at Family Camp Jess got on a friend's golf cart with me and before I could do anything, her foot was on the "gas" peddle and we were off!  I couldn't get her foot off and we were headed for people and the tabernacle.  Luckily we did stop in time.  That was the past flash.  The next flash was seeing her taking off down the middle aisle of Target, yelling "Yee Hah!" and me "running" after her.  What a disaster that could have been.  Thank God I had shut the machine off before I got off.    

Another Birthday Celebration

Diane and Randie came for a birthday celebration dinner for Bill.  Randie made a delicious pumpkin spice cake.  Unfortunately, Bill was unable to try any food or cake because his nose was bleeding - for over 3 hours!  So right after this picture was taken and he opened his present, Jon took Bill to prompt care.  I called ahead to make sure there was a doctor there that could cauterize his nose and there was.  It was better than going to the ER, that's for sure.  Much cheaper, too.

Bill felt much better when he returned home.  Having a bloody nose for so many hours took a toll on him emotionally, as well as physically.  He was also very disappointed that he couldn't try his dinner and cake, too. 

Today's Lesson

As you know, I have been very frustrated lately because my days just don't turn out like I plan them.  Something always happens that messes up my neatly planned day.  Like I have control over it or something. 

Ultimately, if I believe the Bible, it states that our steps are ordered by the Lord.  So, I can plan all I want but He has the final schedule.   I have been asking the Holy Spirit to show me what I need to do about this.  While glancing at a magazine this morning I read a line that has stuck with me all day O(good thing!).  This writer was talking about his Aunt and the way she looked at each day.  She said that (each day) "is a gift you take for what it is, not for what you wish it was." 

My problem is that I have been fighting the things that happen because they mess up my orderly schedule.  I need to thank God for each day, no matter what happens.

OK - so now I need to tell you about my day.  It began with doing about 15 minutes of paperwork before Jon suggested we go out to breakfast.  The 2 of us left and after eating we went to Kohl's and Michael's and bought some Christmas presents with the coupons I had.  While we were having breakfast I started with a terrible headache and it got worse instead of better.  When we got home I put in a load of wash and heated up a few rice packs for my eyes and neck and sat in my chair for an hour.  Felt better when I got up and began some paperwork before I remembered I needed to go down to the basement and switch over the wash.  While I was down there the phone rang and my friend, Laura, called and asked me to pick her up from the hospital.  She had major surgery on Wednesday and needed a ride home. Jon went with me and not only did we bring her home but we had to go to Meijer's and get a prescription for her.

By the time we got home it was time to switch over the wash again and begin dinner.  While we were gone today Bill went through his closet and removed clothes that don't fit.  They were piled neatly on the bed, but I had to take care of them after we ate.  Just as I got started Chris called (Laura's cousin) and said that she couldn't get Laura to answer her door or phone.  Jon and I took off and went over there, too.  Making my long story short, we ended up calling 911 and taking her back to the hospital.  Chris is with her now.

By the time we got home it was after 9:00 p.m., Jessie was asleep on the couch, the bed was piled high with clothes, as well as washer and dryer were filled.  Paperwork?  It's still there.  So much for my nicely planned day to stay home and do nothing but paperwork. 

Frustrated?  No, not anymore.  I'm thanking God for today instead.  It wasn't what I had planned, but it was what He allowed to happen and I even had a part in helping a friend.  That's what was most important.  

I Sound Like I'm Repeating Myself

Jon and Jess both had good days.  Bill didn't.  He had a bloody nose that lasted 40 minutes, and taking care of that made him late for his lunch, so he only got 2 nutritional "meals" today.  The bloody nose was pretty bad and we were wondering if we would have to go back to the ER and have it caterized.  Thankfully, it stopped.  He also felt pretty wiped out and nauseated. 

My day started out good.  Teased Jon alot before he left for a day out.  Went to breakfast with Julie, then grocery shopped at Kroger's.  However, being tired and helping Bill with his problem, put a cloak of heaviness over me.  Sounds stupid, but I don't know how to describe it other than that way.  I tried having some time for myself today but it just didn't work out - again.  Maybe tomorrow.

Happy Birthday, Bill

Today is Bill's 65th birthday.  He had a good physical and relaxing day.  Late in the afternoon we drove down to the Hobby Shop so he could buy some windows and doors for a (very large) birdhouse he's going to make this winter to keep occupied.  When we left the northern sky was black; the southern sky was blue sky, fluffy clouds and lots of sunshine.  While we were gone, the northern sky let loose with yet another rainfall.  On the way home, the southern sky was still bright and Jessie noticed this rainbow out the van window.  It was really beautiful.  We made out 5 colors: orange, yellow, green, blue and purple.  I don't think I've ever seen purple in a rainbow before.  Anyway, it was a birthday gift to Bill.  It was awesome.  I forgot to mention that there were 2 rainbows.  Can you see it?

We enjoyed a very nice birthday dinner while Bill played on the computer.  Chris came and helped us celebrate.  When it came time for dessert, I gave him a teensy tiny piece of brownie cake that Jessie and Shannon made for him.  One bite.  It went down.  He said it tasted good. He wasn't about to try anymore, though. 

I want to tell you what Jessie said to me this morning:  She's in our room, watching tv and playing on the iPad.  My alarm goes off and I press the snooze button.  And again.  And again.  About the fourth time Jessie says: "Stay up, Mom.  Shannon's here."  That got my heart going a little faster only to look at the clock and realize that she was joking.  So, I went back to sleep.  Next time the alarm went off and I didn't get up again, she said:  "Stay up, Mom!  SANTA'S HERE!" 

106 !!!!!

I think I hit an all-time high in page reviews yesterday.  Believe it or not, 106 was the number of hits on my blog.  Amazing.  Incredible.  Unbelievable!  Extremely humbling.

Today God reminded me how much I'm loved.  Thanks, Julie, Rox and Kathy, for your phone calls.  Thanks, Cheryl, for your card.  Thanks Pastor Garry for your visit.  Thanks, Randie, for letting Jessie and I drop in for a few minute's chat.  Thanks Shannon, Mary, Pat and Lynn for a Red Lobster dinner for my birthday tonight.  In trying days the cards, phone calls and outings are like a breath of fresh air.  Thank you, my friends!  You know, it's not the big things in life that count. 

No melt downs for Jessie today.  Bill felt pretty good, not great, just good.  Jon had a good day at work. 

Preparing For Winter

My friend, Doreen, came this afternoon and cleaned out my garden for the winter.  I defrosted my garage freezer (would have been easier if I had done it a month ago when it was alot warmer).  Bill and I went to Goike's and got a bushel of squash for fall dinners and freezing.  Tomorrow I'll pick up a bushel of golden delicious apples from "my mom's apple lady".  I began putting outdoor items away in the playhouse, which is a great storage area when not in use as a picnic area or get away.   I just don't want to put away cushions and stuff from the deck.  I'm holding out for at least a couple more days that we can sit out there.  It is really nice.  Oh, and I put the ice scraper in the van. 

Bill felt a tad bit better than yesterday but not much.  Jessie only had 2 melt downs.  Jon spent the day shopping and going to the show.  He had a great day off. 

How Was My Day?

Very challenging.  It began at 5:55 a.m. when Jess got up for the day and put on her videos.  I was too tired to get up and make her go back to bed, so background morning sleeping music was various videos.  Bill had several bloody noses before he took a shower and didn't feel well.

The physical therapist arrived at 10:00 a.m. for Mom S.  I went back up stairs and took care of Bill.  (He needs to have his peg tube bandage changed at least daily, if not twice.  Plus, I give him a shot in his stomach around 9:00 a.m. each day.)  I gave him some hydrocodone and he went directly to the couch where he spent the day - again.  Jess played on her iPad.  I began wash - ended up doing 5 loads.

At 12:30 the Occupational Therapist arrived, and that sent Mom S over the edge.  She is not willing to do anything to help herself become stronger and resents anyone here.  She was not very nice to the OT and after she left, she got very upset and created a problem.  Which wasn't what Jessie needed since she was near her and it sent Jess into a crying, shut-down mode for almost an hour.  All this was more than Bill wanted to handle, too.  Plus, it was very evident that we couldn't go on our girls day out for lunch. 

By 3:15 when the nurse arrived Mom S was calmer but very unhappy that blood work needs to be taken often, as well as blood pressure.  She doesn't quite get the fact that since she's on coumadin the INR needs to be kept at a certain level.  Tomorrow the home health aide comes to assist her in a shower.  (I think I'll leave the house!)

Oh, yes - also in the middle of all this Bill says to me, "Just to let you know, I have pain in my face."  Now, my first thought goes to the jaw for heart trouble, but he said that it was under the right eye, in the eye socket and over the eye.  It was pretty intense for awhile.  We finally determined that it was probably bone pain that he has after chemo and the next-day shot.  We hope.

Jess and I finally left for our girls day out at 5:15 p.m.  We met Chris at Wendy's in Romeo for dinner then went to K-Mart to shop for a birthday present for Bill (it's Thursday, the 27th).  We got home around 7:45 p.m. 

Clothers are folded and on the couch - where they'll stay until tomorrow.  I am going upstairs in a few minutes and calling it a day.  Tomorrow could only be better.  Hopefully.

A Better Day For Bill

We are so very thankful that today was so much better than yesterday.  He's still plastered to the couch, but he's been up and around a bit.  He was well enough that after Jess and I had our church time on tv this morning and prayer, we went to breakfast.  Something special.  She seemed to have a really good day.  Especially since she saw her most favorite friends at the Garden:  Bill and Nancy.  They were with other couples we know from church, but Bill and Nancy are her favorite!

A Fun Day (for me)

I went with Diane and Randie for an appointment in Birmingham this afternoon.  Before we got there we ate at the Athens Coney Island - a diner on Woodward.  I took a picture of it because it's the first time I ate in a diner and it was neat. I'll post it later when I think about it before I begin my blog.  I had a coney dog and a bowl of their home made macaroni and cheese that was excellent. On the way home we went to a couple stores.  A very nice day out for me.  Thanks, Diane and Randie!

Unfortunately, Bill had a very bad physical day.  He was plastered to the couch all day and very, very sick.  He's hopeing for a better day tomorrow.

Facebook

I have heard so many people make negative comments on how people use FB by posting useless tidbits, and they don't want to waste their time with it.  Well, that may be true for some people, but the people I have friended care about me and my family.  We keep up with each other's world and pray for each other.  I love seeing pictures of out-of-state relatives and friends and their families.  I pray for their requests, too. 

It is a great way to feel connected.  Since Bill was diagnosed with cancer, he's spent many hours plastered to the couch.  At first there were lots of phone calls and visits.  It's been almost a year and a half and the phone is quiet and visits are rare.  For months now I have been teaching him about FB and how to keep up with our family and friends.  Yesterday he said he wanted his own account!  He no longer wanted to share "ours".  Well! 

So, if you're on FB and want to friend Bill, please do so.  He's learning now how to post his own messages and respond back.  It makes him feel really connected to his friends. 

It wasn't too bad of a day for him physically.  Very red and hot from the steroids, nauseated but not too bad.  Now if he could only sleep.  He usually has insomnia for several nights after chemo.  Go figure!

Chemo #16 - Done

Bill informed me that this chemo infusion was #16.  Wow.  To think that we've walked into that room 16 times.  Before we left today I prayed with Bill in the van that all would go well and that they would be able to get the blood out right away.  What a miracle - neither one of us was watching the nurse and she put the needle in, primed it and was on her second bottle of blood before either one of us noticed!  She laughed and said she didn't say anything because it was going so well.  Thank you, Jesus.  As of right now, he's not feeling too bad.

The intake nurse was here to "check" Mom S. in for Home Care.  The "invasion" of medical personnel has begun. 

A Kind Of Eeyore Day

So dark, rainy, windy.  Makes one want to take a day's nap, or be gloomy like Eeyore.  That's me today.  Gloomy, gloomy, gloomy.

Brought Mom S home.  She seems to be doing well.  Bill worked out in his workshop all day.  He won't be able to get out there again for a week or more.  He enjoyed himself.  Jon is at work.  Jessie ... well, she's not been very nice ALL day.  From the moment she got out of bed until now.  Very challenging.

Please remember Bill as he has chemo in the morning.  We appreciate it.

A Wonderful Gift

Bill blessed me with a wonderful gift today ... a cleaned garage!  He's been working on it for days, and it looks wonderful!  Our new van fits in there quite nicely, too.  Thank you, sweetheart!  I love you!

Please continue to pray for Bill as he psychologically prepares to walk into the infusion room on Thursday.  That is the hardest part - beside all the side effects. 

A Productive Day

Of course, today was Girls Day Out.  Only Jessie wasn't being on her best behavior, so I left her home (with Jon) and took Bill to the post office and bank.  Then we did go out to lunch and the Dollar Store.  She was very excited to get more workbook books.  She really loves doing paper work.  Hum.  Maybe I should give her some of mine!

Jane and Rachel came and took Jess to Blake's Apple Orchard to pick apples, have cider and donuts and go out to dinner at Wendy's.  She sure has had a good day.  While she was gone Bill and I went to Kroger's and got a few things I needed and turned in way-too-many pop bottles. 

Bill began cleaning the garage so that soon, very soon? I will be able to park the van in the garage.  I'm not a fan of scraping ice and snow off the windows.  It's been a temporary workshop while he worked all summer on the deck. 

Grandma is coming home on Wednesday.  We would all appreciate prayers as she adjusts to being home again.  We're not sure how much help she'll need, but she will come home with Home Help.  A nurse, pt, ot and and aide will invade our home for quite sometime.  Please pray for me as I try to help her, as well as care for Bill who will be having chemo again on Thursday. 

How's That?

As many of you know, we have been having trouble with Jessie yelling "NO!" whenever anyone coughs, clears their throats or sneezes.  It is very wearing, to say the least.  I've tried to tell her each time that when someone coughs, she should say, "Bless You!" That doesn't happen often.  Anyway, this morning she was on a roll with her "No's" and we were ignoring her.  She stopped, quietly said, "Bless you," then said ... "How's that?"  Oh, my gosh.  Who could keep from laughing?  Not us, for sure.

We went and visited Grandma today.  We brought her to the main lounge and had ice cream.  Jess was goofing around with dad's hat.  Such a cute young lady.  Too bad she doesn't always act like one!

An Extremely Blustery Day

Wow!  It's a wonder that all trees are not bare and ready for winter.  I can't remember when the wind blew as much as it did today.

We were going to go see Grandma today but Jon's still not feeling well, Jessie was not in a good mood all day and had a melt down.  Bill has been sick all day with pain and throwing up.  Saliva wasn't going through to the stomach again.  He's very fatigued.  Me - well, I'm doing wash, vacuumed the house, paperwork and took an hours nap.  That about sums up our day. 

Wasted Time?

Bill and I left early this morning and took a friend to the airport in Flint.  It was patchy rain all the way there and back, with some breakthrough sun.  Not much.  Stopped for breakfast in Davison and home by 12:30 p.m.  Put a load of wash in, made a few business phone calls and called it quits.  I laid down for a few minutes because I was so tired and slept for almost 4 hours !!!!  I felt so guilty when I got up because I had wasted 4 hours of my day where I could have been doing more wash, cleaning house, paper work, etc.,  etc., etc.  Did I really waste my time?  I think I must have needed that rest or I wouldn't have slept for 4 hours.  I would still be sleeping if Bill hadn't asked me if I planned on getting up today. 

Another Game Plan

Bill had a scheduled oncologist appointment today and we have another game plan.  He will be having chemo again next Thursday, two weeks later a CT scan, a week later an appointment with the gastroenterologist then a week later another OV with the oncologist.  When we see the gastro. dr., we will discuss if he thinks it's feasible to check the valve in the esophogus/stomach and see if it is non functioning.  This may be the reason Bill is unable to get food down into the stomach.  We'll see.

Between now and next Thursday, Bill will be in high-gear getting things done while he is physically able to do them.  He's still working on cleaning his workshop.  Next comes the garage, and somewhere along the line we need to put things away for winter.  Ah, winter.  I am not looking forward to it.  I really enjoy going sockless.

Divine Intervention

Bill, Jon, Jess and I took off yesterday morning and went up north to see the colors and visit Ruth, Bill and Billy in their home near Lewiston.  Colors were nice but alot of trees were almost bare.  We spent the night at the Hampton Inn in Gaylord and left this morning.  We took a small side trip to Hartwick Pines.  Arrived back home at 3:45 p.m. after traveling 553 miles.  As a side note, we got 28.5 mpg with our new van!

On the road into Lewiston a strange thing happened.  Bill was driving with Jon in the front seat with him.  Jess and I were in the back.  I'm not sure who yelled first (Bill/Jon), but when I looked up all I saw was a deer in front of the van.  However, he looked a little weird.  I had the immediate impression that a very big hand was on his butt pushing him across the road - he looked something like an accordian!  I closed my eyes, said "Oh, Lord Jesus!" and prepared for impact.  Nothing.  There was absolutely no way we could have missed him.  I believe it was a divine intervention.  I never said anything to Bill or Jon about my impression until we got home when I asked them for their version.  It was just like mine!  Wow!  Thank you, Jesus, for protecting us on the road by sending your angel(s) to push that deer across the road.

I need to tell you this, too, because it's just too funny ... We stopped on the way home in Saginaw at the Flying J / Wendy's for lunch.  After I ordered I asked the girl if they gave senior citizen discounts.  She said, "No, this isn't a real Wendy's".  I stared at her and I really didn't quite know what to say - I was sure we were in Wendy's.  It looked exactly like any other Wendy's I've ever been in.  I continued staring at her then  I finally asked, "So, this is pretend?"  (She didn't think that was funny.)  She responded by saying that it was owned by a very large corporation and they owned this particular Wendy's and THEY didn't give discounts.  Oh, please.  Either I was in Wendy's or I wasn't.

Ice Cream Social

Did you know that every afternoon at Shelby Nursing Center from 2:30 - 3:30 p.m. is Ice Cream Social for the residents and their families?  We made sure that when we went to see Grandma today that we were there for that.  Grandma had chocolate, Jessie had strawberry and I had praline pecan.  Yum.  We took Grandma to the main room for the social then visited and listened to the residents and 2 very vocal volunteers singing songs from the ... 40's, 50's ????  "Won't You Come Home Bill Baily?"  "You Are My Sunshine".  I have to say that my family wasn't too impressed with my joining in.  What can I say?  I like music and I like to sing!

What Have We Done To Deserve Such Wonderful Weather?

It bears repeating that the weather today was awesome.  Spent most of the day on the deck.  Breakfast, lunch and dinner.  Wonderful.  Had a house full of company this afternoon and we even played Apples to Apples on the deck.  That made Jessie VERY happy.

Bill wasn't feeling well enough this morning to go to church.  I encouraged him to go back to bed and take a nap.  He slept for a couple hours and woke feeling better. Jon worked today and will tomorrow, also.  He was pretty tired tonight.  Too bad he couldn't enjoy the outside weather.